Last night, I was think bout You. If you will leave me, what respond i will give to you ? I tell myself that don't think too much.. When I speak out your name - Lim Chee Lian, My tears spread out again. Why ? Why you can be cruel ? Do you think of my feelings too ? You said that i just think for one-sided. Then, you are too. hmm ~
One day, One week and almost One month, We didn't contact each other. Are you still fine there? I tell you, actually I'm not fine. Every nights I will cry because of you my dear. Do you hear it? Do you know how sad am I ?
Before, you said that you will give a lot of happiness for me. Do you achieve it ? You didn't my dear. Can we stop to argue ? I'm tired and scare for it. I scare you will leave me soon. I scare you will love another one. P/S: It's not mean I do not believe you, just you told me before, If someone treat you better when we argue, you maybe will like her.
hmm.. Today, early in the morning, I'm waking up and take my phone to see the message. A friend send me a meaningful message, And I cry like a baby again ><'' It's touch and It's saying bout us.
My eyes look like panda. I force myself to smile. But, It's hard. My heart is painful. My body is no energy. Because I'm been hurt now.
How hurt am i, You just think you are hurt than me. Sorry for say it. But, I hope you know my feelings. I know, If I text to tell you. We will argue again and again. So, I better write at here. Just let it be a diary for myself .
Today, I' m unhappy at all. When I woke at 6am , I saw your message. It's make me happy a lot. After I read it, I just knew that you were wrong sent the message to me. :'C You told me that you were slept at 11pm. But, the wrong message was sent at 1am. My tears was spread on that time. In the message I knew that you dislike I see your facebook. So, I warn myself. Don't try to open your facebook for the whole day night. Let me change it start now, I used to see your profile actually. But, today i never see it. Even though my heart is pain now.
You told me that you will find me when you think I am believe you. Dear, do you know i'm believe you at anytimes. I will care bout your everythings so why I will ask bout what you are doing there. I want to hear your voice not because I not believe you. Just, I start to miss you :'C. You never know everydays i'm waiting your message. I hope you will text me automatically. But, i think it just a dream for me.
Is it you will be sad when you are thinking of me? I know that I'm not the one who give you happiness, bless .. i just know to make you upset and angry. sorry :'C I'm miscarriage. Are you happy when you are chatting with them? If yes, I will let you chat with them. Because, I hope to see your smile. But not the moody face. I admit that I'm overbearing when do somethings for you. Especially not let you chat with girls even those are your friends. I'm childish, immature, selfish and never care bout your feelings.
Imissyoualot. Do you know it ? hmm.. You still love me like before? You still will miss me everydays? I not dare to ask you and i scare to know the answer you will give. :'C I not have the courage to know it. I'm scare. Will you leave me? Please don't T.T .. ! hmm ><'' ( crying )
I will be waiting for you at here C': hope it will be fine. God bless me please. ahmen _ ><